The things that make me do all this.

There are so many things that can drive someone to change their life. Inspiration from others already living their dream, sorrow from losing a loved one, the need to change their circumstances, anger and frustration of an injustice… whatever it is, I find myself in awe of our capacity to make magic out of that push.

I have been working all day, everyday on this platform and the content for weeks now. I find myself in a constant urgency to do what I can. It almost feels like I am running, racing, with some looming darkness sweeping at my feet. When I slow down, its hard to not immediately get up and do more.

The seemingly unlimited amount of energy to accomplish something greater than yourself is a marvel of human persistence that I cannot fathom even when coursing though my own being. 

For me, there are a lot of things motivating me. Wanting to give my son a childhood where his mother works from home doing something good for the world that allows us to live without financial limits. Showing him its possible to have that kind of life while being of service. 

I also want to show my parents who are in the latter half of their life that everything turned out okay. That their daughter finally figured it out after the years of pain and having to rebuild everything from the ground up.

 I want the people who supported me to have someone who can help them, I want to be in a place to be able to help. 

Not to mention, the people who hurt me, I want them to know that hurting someone they view as nothing and turn around to be someone that they would be lucky to know, not out of spite, but for forgiveness, I could forgive them easier if I knew they weren’t right about me. 

And of course, I want to help whoever stumbles across me. I want people to know they are loved. I want them to know they deserve happiness and peace. I want them to see their life as a gift and to feel joy that they get to be here. 

So often in my life, I felt I was not meant to exist. I felt unworthy of love or accomplishing anything. I wanted so badly to die or get so high or drunk that I would forget about how I grew up to feel about myself and this life. 

I don’t want anyone to feel that way, not for a second, and not for a lifetime.

Whatever you do with this, whatever changes or goals you hope to achieve, I sincerely hope it works out. I hope that I can help you find something worth experiencing. I hope you can find a drive or motivation that will help carry you through your moments. 

I’m glad you are here with me and you are trying. I’m so proud of you.

- Dani 💚💙